Memories, Skyscrapers and a Broken Umbrella

And I thought I had forgotten you...
I really thought you'd never come back to keep me awake all night. But now, I can feel your presence - in my head. Just like my head and heart, no, like my whole body was a skyscraper and you'd be running up- and downstairs inside of it.
I've written so many songs about you - about my experience with you. How you saved my life, how I fell in love with you, and finally, how I forgot you...

I haven't seen you for over a year. And I haven't spoken with you for at least six months. For others, this may not be a long time. But for me and you, it is. I don't know why I remembered you. I'm happy. I don't need you any more... and you don't need me. You have got her.

Although... we all know that she will never be like me. She'll never be as tall as I am; she'll never get my great sense of humor, or my blue eyes; she won't be able to change her personality completele from one second to another just as I do everyday. She is not me. And you know it. And whenever you remember this, your heart aches and you stop breathing for two or three seconds. But you stay be her side. Thinking she'll make you happy until the day you die.

And maybe she will. But... who knows?

I just know that I don't want to remember you ever again. I've thrown away everything that reminds me of you and the time we've spent together. Our last photograph is hidden and lost. The collar my mother bought for me in YOUR hometown has been ripped. And even the umbrella, that awful song reminded me of ever and ever again, broke just a month ago.

You see, there's nothing here to remind me of you and your existence.
But I still feel your presence in my head...

So long and good night...